Mmmm - having a lovely day off today, and I can't quite decide what to do with myself. I know that it should involve some low points and exercise as I was a little bit naughtly last night at the quiz and a plate from the buffet that I didn't really have the points for. It's funny - I think that's probably the first time I've really slid back into old habits since I started the WW's - just took one unconsciously without really thinking about whether I was actually hungry or wondering about how many points it would cost - I must knock that habit on the head as it's pretty self-destructive when you think about it. Note to self - please stop acting like a sheep and following the herd to the buffet table!!!
I've got a couple of hours before I'm due at the hairdressers this afternoon, and I need to take some shoes back to the shop and see if the smaller size will fit, so I think I'll get my bike out and cycle down there as it's only a couple of miles. I might have to walk back up the rather large hill on the way back though! That way I can fit in some exercise and feel like I'm being good for the environment - and it's more interesting than just going to the gym on my own!
I was reading a thread on the forums yesterday where some people were discussing why then tend to unconsciously sabotage their own diet efforts. One lady's post caught my eye because she said that she thought she was afraid to get thin again because people treated her differently the last time she lost a lot of weight. It's got me thinking, wondering if people will treat me differently as I lose more weight. I wonder if my friends will treat me any differently (I hope not as I like my relationships with my friends the way they are and would hate to see anything get in the way of that), and then I wonder if strangers will treat me differently.
I have always assumed that if people's reactions to me do change it would be in a good way, but now I wonder - this lady had clearly had some kind of bad experience. It's not good is it, that we seem to be so hung up on appearance that we really do take into account a person's looks in the way we treat them. Am I suddenly expecting that people who have never noticed me before will do so? Do I even really want them to? Do we half think that if we get slimmer we really will emerge like a butterfly from a chrysalis - that it will magically make us pretty and more attractive like some character in a fairytale? And if it doesn't how do we deal with the disappointment of that? I for one have not a clue how my face will look when I lose weight - I can't imagine it as very different - maybe just a slightly more defined jaw - so really what reason would anyone have to see me as someone different? I wish sometimes that we could look into the future and see how things will be, and know if they will really make us any happier. Looking back at my list of motivations, I can see that appearance really doesn't rate that highly on the list of benefits I thought of, and yet I have to admit it is something that occupies me - can losing weight really make you happier? Or does it just make life easier? Or does it really make no difference at all (apart from the obvious health benefits)?
Arrrggghhh - too introspective!!! Time to go out and enjoy the sunshine I think!
Friday, 6 March 2009
Thursday, 5 March 2009
Aaaaah - much better
Much better day today - possibly because my SP at the scales this morning said I had already lost 2lbs this week. I won't hold my breath, but it's nice to see anyway.
I tripped up slightly at the pub last night as someone had bought along a big bag of toffees from a trip to Sweden - no matter how many times I said to myself "that's the last one", some how another one sneaked in. Still - I don't think I ate too many (10 ish? May be not even that), and I walked back from the pub which is about 20 mins and then conscientiously tried to point them up.
I'm kicking off the weekend's round of social stuff tonight with a quiz night with work - should be ok as I've got 14 points left after dinner, and although I'm eating dinner at a friend's house first, I'm driving so can avoid the dreaded wine tonight. It's amazing how much more in control I feel after just a couple of weeks on WW's - a couple of weeks ago I swear I would have been panicking at the thought of so many social situations and mentally going over the points - I think I've fallen into new habits quite quickly though so don't need to think so much about it anymore.
After mentioning my award at work yesterday, I got confirmation of it through this morning - and £310 worth of vouchers to spend!!! Unfortunately, I had two items in mind that I really wanted to get with the vouchers - a new pair of UGG boots (since I passed my 8lb loss marker on my 09 Fit and Healthy Challenge, I'm now allowed to buy them!) and a gorgeous handbag I saw in M & S that was over a £100 - and of all the places you can spend the vouchers - I can't get either - gutted!!! Might just hang on to them for a while - there's loads of really nice shops like Whistles on the list, as well as staples like Topshop, so maybe I'll reward myself when I lose a bit more weight!
I tripped up slightly at the pub last night as someone had bought along a big bag of toffees from a trip to Sweden - no matter how many times I said to myself "that's the last one", some how another one sneaked in. Still - I don't think I ate too many (10 ish? May be not even that), and I walked back from the pub which is about 20 mins and then conscientiously tried to point them up.
I'm kicking off the weekend's round of social stuff tonight with a quiz night with work - should be ok as I've got 14 points left after dinner, and although I'm eating dinner at a friend's house first, I'm driving so can avoid the dreaded wine tonight. It's amazing how much more in control I feel after just a couple of weeks on WW's - a couple of weeks ago I swear I would have been panicking at the thought of so many social situations and mentally going over the points - I think I've fallen into new habits quite quickly though so don't need to think so much about it anymore.
After mentioning my award at work yesterday, I got confirmation of it through this morning - and £310 worth of vouchers to spend!!! Unfortunately, I had two items in mind that I really wanted to get with the vouchers - a new pair of UGG boots (since I passed my 8lb loss marker on my 09 Fit and Healthy Challenge, I'm now allowed to buy them!) and a gorgeous handbag I saw in M & S that was over a £100 - and of all the places you can spend the vouchers - I can't get either - gutted!!! Might just hang on to them for a while - there's loads of really nice shops like Whistles on the list, as well as staples like Topshop, so maybe I'll reward myself when I lose a bit more weight!
Wednesday, 4 March 2009
A funny old day
I think I'm having a kind of upside-down day. It started off with everything possible going wrong - I overslept, found that TOTM had crept up on me when I wasn't looking and I'd run out of painkillers, my hip was still aching from the weekend (god knows what I've done to it - suspect it's related to the whole back thing), couldn't find my watch, got stuck behind the slowest car in the world crawling along an empty road at 10mph (cue dodgy overtaking manouver and much swearing) and then managed to leave my ipod on the dashboard of my car once I got to work so had to run back out to the carpark and get it - normally not a problem, but having arrived late I was in one of the further carparks. I didn't even have the consolation of my usual mini pack of Buttons to cheer me up as the kitchen cupboards seem to have magically emptied themselves.
And then out of nowhere, my boss confided to me that I'd been nominated for some award at work. I find this incredibly odd as I would have told you that I was absolutely rubbish at my job - I've been there more than 6 months now, and most of the time I haven't a clue what's going on when someone asks me a question. There's a massive redundancy situation being sorted at the moment and as one of the youngest and least experienced on my team I've got quite a high chance of it being me - can't say I'd be massively disappointed if it is, as the internal politics drive me nuts and I can't say I'm overly happy there (although the people are lovely (mostly) and the perks are great) - so being nominated for some award is something of a surprise to say the least!
On a food front, it's been a fairly good day - I've eaten loads, but I must have made some pretty good choices as I've still got 11.5 points for tea - not that I've got much food in to eat! I've been to the gym for a spinning class, so have rescued a few more of the points I inadvertantly used on Monday. I'm hoping for quite a good week this week, as although I'm going to be out and about a lot, it's all in environments where I can control what I'm eating /drinking, so I'm wondering if that, combined with the fact that clearly I was coming up on TOTM on Monday on my WI, means that I might actually have quite a good loss on Monday. We'll see I suppose - usually when I expect the good loss I get a STS, and when I'm expecting the worst I get a surprise!
Hope you're all having a good week so far.
And then out of nowhere, my boss confided to me that I'd been nominated for some award at work. I find this incredibly odd as I would have told you that I was absolutely rubbish at my job - I've been there more than 6 months now, and most of the time I haven't a clue what's going on when someone asks me a question. There's a massive redundancy situation being sorted at the moment and as one of the youngest and least experienced on my team I've got quite a high chance of it being me - can't say I'd be massively disappointed if it is, as the internal politics drive me nuts and I can't say I'm overly happy there (although the people are lovely (mostly) and the perks are great) - so being nominated for some award is something of a surprise to say the least!
On a food front, it's been a fairly good day - I've eaten loads, but I must have made some pretty good choices as I've still got 11.5 points for tea - not that I've got much food in to eat! I've been to the gym for a spinning class, so have rescued a few more of the points I inadvertantly used on Monday. I'm hoping for quite a good week this week, as although I'm going to be out and about a lot, it's all in environments where I can control what I'm eating /drinking, so I'm wondering if that, combined with the fact that clearly I was coming up on TOTM on Monday on my WI, means that I might actually have quite a good loss on Monday. We'll see I suppose - usually when I expect the good loss I get a STS, and when I'm expecting the worst I get a surprise!
Hope you're all having a good week so far.
Tuesday, 3 March 2009
Yay - new belt required!
I am very happy to report that I had to buy a new belt for my jeans last night - the old one was on the tightest hole and starting to get a bit loose - not an ideal situation when you can already take the jeans off without undoing them!! So I went an bought a replacement - I am officially now a L in Next rather than an XL - happy days!!
Also bought some lovely new work trousers which were rather flattering (although will require sky-scraper heels to get them off the ground!) and a lovely bright cherry-red belted trench coat - it makes me smile just looking at it because it's such a cheerful colour!
Bumped into a friend whilst I was out shopping and we ended up having dinner together at hers - went to M & S to get some food for dinner, and like all my other friends, she asked "What can you have that's ok for your points". I told her not to worry too much, and get what she wanted, but she was adamant that we'd get "good" stuff - I swear if I ever tried to give up on WW's my friend's wouldn't let me!!! Which is probably a good thing :o)
Had a lovely compliment this morning when I decided to treat myself to a small hot chocolate from the coffee shop on site - the girls behind the counter are always very friendly, and since I haven't been in for a few weeks (since starting WW's in fact, and realising how many points my daily hot chocolates were taking up - even with skimmed milk), they asked if I'd been away on holiday, because I looked like I was "glowing with health" - I think I'll attribute that to WW's if nobody else has any objections!
Be glad to have today finished with - it's the busiest day of the month for me at work, which is irritating as it means I will most likely miss my regular Tuesday night trip to the gym and then girls night with my friend Bridget - shall have to make doubly sure that I try and get to the gym another night - maybe Thursday, as I've been enjoying the sessions.
Will be meeting up with my new fitness buddy Ed for a bike ride on Sunday - bit nervous as we've never met before, although he seems very sane, and also that he might be light years fitter than me and I'll be embarrassingly far behind!! Oh well - I've tried to warn him, so we'll just have to see - might have to raise my game a bit!
Also bought some lovely new work trousers which were rather flattering (although will require sky-scraper heels to get them off the ground!) and a lovely bright cherry-red belted trench coat - it makes me smile just looking at it because it's such a cheerful colour!
Bumped into a friend whilst I was out shopping and we ended up having dinner together at hers - went to M & S to get some food for dinner, and like all my other friends, she asked "What can you have that's ok for your points". I told her not to worry too much, and get what she wanted, but she was adamant that we'd get "good" stuff - I swear if I ever tried to give up on WW's my friend's wouldn't let me!!! Which is probably a good thing :o)
Had a lovely compliment this morning when I decided to treat myself to a small hot chocolate from the coffee shop on site - the girls behind the counter are always very friendly, and since I haven't been in for a few weeks (since starting WW's in fact, and realising how many points my daily hot chocolates were taking up - even with skimmed milk), they asked if I'd been away on holiday, because I looked like I was "glowing with health" - I think I'll attribute that to WW's if nobody else has any objections!
Be glad to have today finished with - it's the busiest day of the month for me at work, which is irritating as it means I will most likely miss my regular Tuesday night trip to the gym and then girls night with my friend Bridget - shall have to make doubly sure that I try and get to the gym another night - maybe Thursday, as I've been enjoying the sessions.
Will be meeting up with my new fitness buddy Ed for a bike ride on Sunday - bit nervous as we've never met before, although he seems very sane, and also that he might be light years fitter than me and I'll be embarrassingly far behind!! Oh well - I've tried to warn him, so we'll just have to see - might have to raise my game a bit!
Monday, 2 March 2009
Woohoooooo!
That one tiny little half a pound on the scales (or even off the scales!) this morning has cheered me right up - I can eat all the nice stuff and still lose weight. Ok - so I've still got a ridiculously long way to go, but that is so encouraging!
I also have to say that I love my best friend, Jo, dearly. When we met up for our walk yesterday, she just looked at me and said "ooooh - you look so slim!". Liar - but the sentiment's good and makes me feel like it's working on the outside too!
I've decided to shake things up a bit this week. Rather than getting into a routine of eating the same old things all the time, which I think would be bad for both my sanity and my diet, I'm going to move things around between meals a bit and see what happens. So rather than my normal cereal with skimmed milk for breakfast, I had beans on toast - which was actually really filling and kept me going right through to lunch time. Normally, I'd have been starving by about half 10 and reaching for the cereal bars in the desk. Just had lovely stir-fry leftovers from last night lunch - slightly higher points than I would normally have for lunch, so I'll have a light tea this evening for a change.
The only thing that has made me slightly grumpy this morning is that I caved in last night, after my nice healthy tea, and had a slice of home-made pizza round at the boys. Why??? Such a silly thing to do. Ok, so it smelt amazing, but it's not like I haven't had it before, and afterwards I just thought "I so didn't need that". Very annoyed for my lack of self-control. I shall remember that feeling for the next time I'm tempted to do something similarly daft!
I also have to say that I love my best friend, Jo, dearly. When we met up for our walk yesterday, she just looked at me and said "ooooh - you look so slim!". Liar - but the sentiment's good and makes me feel like it's working on the outside too!
I've decided to shake things up a bit this week. Rather than getting into a routine of eating the same old things all the time, which I think would be bad for both my sanity and my diet, I'm going to move things around between meals a bit and see what happens. So rather than my normal cereal with skimmed milk for breakfast, I had beans on toast - which was actually really filling and kept me going right through to lunch time. Normally, I'd have been starving by about half 10 and reaching for the cereal bars in the desk. Just had lovely stir-fry leftovers from last night lunch - slightly higher points than I would normally have for lunch, so I'll have a light tea this evening for a change.
The only thing that has made me slightly grumpy this morning is that I caved in last night, after my nice healthy tea, and had a slice of home-made pizza round at the boys. Why??? Such a silly thing to do. Ok, so it smelt amazing, but it's not like I haven't had it before, and afterwards I just thought "I so didn't need that". Very annoyed for my lack of self-control. I shall remember that feeling for the next time I'm tempted to do something similarly daft!
Sunday, 1 March 2009
Measurements
OK - I've bit the bullet - please don't laugh at the following, but I figured since I'm blogging everything else on here, I might as well track my measurements on here as well!
So, as at today this is where I am:
Hips - 48"
Waist - I have a weird figure as my waist is really high and then my hips really flare out so two waist measurements - Upper Waist (at the narrowest bit) - 40.5", Lower Waist (at belly button) - 46.5"
Chest - 46"
Upper Arm - 13"
Upper Leg - 27.5"
Let's see if I can improve on some of these! I don't know how often I should remeasure - weekly seems too often so I'll either have another look in 2 or 4 weeks time. Kind of wish I'd started this at the beginning so I'd know what progress I'd already made!
So, as at today this is where I am:
Hips - 48"
Waist - I have a weird figure as my waist is really high and then my hips really flare out so two waist measurements - Upper Waist (at the narrowest bit) - 40.5", Lower Waist (at belly button) - 46.5"
Chest - 46"
Upper Arm - 13"
Upper Leg - 27.5"
Let's see if I can improve on some of these! I don't know how often I should remeasure - weekly seems too often so I'll either have another look in 2 or 4 weeks time. Kind of wish I'd started this at the beginning so I'd know what progress I'd already made!
Eeeek - the moment of truth tomorrow!
Tomorrow's WI has taken on a new significance for me after this week - I'm thinking now that if I can register even a tiny loss tomorrow after the amount of amazing food this week, then my faith in WW's will be well and truly confirmed! Can't help thinking that I have no right to lose weight after the luxuries of the week, even though they were all pointed as best I could and I'm within my limit.
Tried to help it along a bit today, by going out for a walk with a friend - our stroll took us through the country lanes and footpaths near her parents place a couple of miles from where I live - neither of us thought we could face clambering around on the hills, so we opted for something a bit gentler and flatter. Beautiful walk though - lovely and sunny and the scenery was pretty - saw horses, llamas, some very cute piglets, lots of fancy chickens and a pea-hen whilst we were out and about! Who'd have thought all that was so close to home? We stopped at a nearby fruit farm with a lovely farm shop and treated ourselves to an ice-cream before starting the return trip ... which probably undid all the good work of the walk, but hell, it was nice so who cares!
Whilst chatting to my friend (whose actually doing my fit and healthy for '09 challenge with me), we decided that it would be a good idea for us both to get the tape measure out and make a record for ourselves of where we are now. Hopefully, that'll give us something else to celebrate when the lb's aren't always shifting. Supposed I'd better bite the bullet and do it!
Going to go and eat some nice healthy stir-fry now before crossing all available fingers and toes for a good WI result tomorrow!
Tried to help it along a bit today, by going out for a walk with a friend - our stroll took us through the country lanes and footpaths near her parents place a couple of miles from where I live - neither of us thought we could face clambering around on the hills, so we opted for something a bit gentler and flatter. Beautiful walk though - lovely and sunny and the scenery was pretty - saw horses, llamas, some very cute piglets, lots of fancy chickens and a pea-hen whilst we were out and about! Who'd have thought all that was so close to home? We stopped at a nearby fruit farm with a lovely farm shop and treated ourselves to an ice-cream before starting the return trip ... which probably undid all the good work of the walk, but hell, it was nice so who cares!
Whilst chatting to my friend (whose actually doing my fit and healthy for '09 challenge with me), we decided that it would be a good idea for us both to get the tape measure out and make a record for ourselves of where we are now. Hopefully, that'll give us something else to celebrate when the lb's aren't always shifting. Supposed I'd better bite the bullet and do it!
Going to go and eat some nice healthy stir-fry now before crossing all available fingers and toes for a good WI result tomorrow!
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