But I shan't.
I mean, yes, I did get the news yesterday that my moving in date of 1 Jan to the new flat has fallen through. And yes, I couldn't find a proper parking space last night or this morning (or in fact, the winter coat and flat work shoes that I went shopping for last night which caused me to move the car in the first place). And yes, I managed to spill toothpaste down myself this morning (note - don't attempt an entire conversation whilst brushing your teeth - it doesn't work) and was therefore late for work. But frankly, none of that is the end of the world.
The toothpaste came out. The car can be moved tonight. And there are always have other options on the flat - the girls I was planning to move in with are still keen to do so and we just have to work out where. In the meantime, I've done a bit of research and there are places I can move to for a month or so after Christmas if I need to. Or we could look at getting a different flat that's available sooner. And my wonderful friend Hannah actually suggested I could just stay at hers for a bit longer if I need to.
Plus there are reasons to be cheerful:
- People at my work are lovely, and they give out compliments all the time - I've had
2 people3 people (another one just came to chat to me at my desk whilst I was writing this) tell me how much they like my new black lace tights today - one of them I don't even know terribly well and stopped me in the corridor just to mention it!
- My friends are super-awesome. When I told Hannah about the flat problem last night, she just offered that I stay another month with her (subject to her flatmate's agreement of course). Other friends have rallied around with suggestions and condolences and further offers of beds. Then there's the fact that they always have nice things to say when I see them, and seem to genuinely care what I'm up to.
- I might be between permanent abodes, which is unsettling, but it's definitely saving me some cash. With any luck, by the time the flat thing is settled, I might have a little extra lump sum to put to my debts.
- I will be ok. All of this stuff, testing as it is, will make me stronger. The more things I survive on my own, the more I know I can and the more capable and confident I become. I will find a lovely new home. I will sort my debts out. And I will be healthy and happy.
- And there just might be a rather nice man interested in me. An actual bona fide man from the real world, not the world of the internet, but a friend of a friend. We've only met up a couple of times so far, but we get on well and he's invited me away this weekend for a casual weekend with some friends of his, some of which I know too. Eeeeeeep! I'm still trying to decide if that's a good idea (2 of the girls are terrible gossips so it might all be a bit under the microscope) but it's exciting none-the-less.
More anon, Challengers of Life!