Today has very much been a day of ups and downs.
On the upside, I weighed in a day early this morning so as to get a realistic weight on my own scales at my normal weigh in time (rather than my Dad's slightly sketchy scales tomorrow morning). This week's result: 12st 2.8lbs, which is down, ummm, quite a lot from last week. 3.2lbs I think.
On the downside, I got a call-back from the bank just as I was leaving my flat for work, to tell me that they'd turned down my loan application. I've tried so hard not to get my hopes up about this, but I felt pretty crushed to have that option taken away from me.
Apparently, I've been turned down because I've been over my agreed overdraft by about £10 sometime in the last 6 months and that makes me a bad prospect. Never mind that I make all my bill payments on time, and want to use a small part of the loan to clear and shut my overdraft completely and also ease my cash-flow a bit.
After considering crying for about 30 seconds, I told myself to suck it up, as it won't change anything. I tried, and for the moment it didn't work. Ok, so for the time being there's no (slightly) easier way out of my debt. I'm just going to have to keep plodding and do it the hard way, and if it is like wading through treacle and thoroughly demoralising, well tough shit. I got myself in this mess, and it's down to me to get myself out.
Like everything else that's worthwhile in life, it's not going to be easy and I'm going to have to fight hard for it. As per usual, Jo stepped in with practical words of support as well as cheering me up over email, because she's an awesome friend, and I'll keep fighting this thing.
Off home to Dad's tonight, and then off barging in Wales tomorrow - a busy weekend (and probably the last one away I can afford for a while). I just need to sit back and enjoy and stick to my food plan.
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